Log in

No account? Create an account
I know I'm weird... [entries|archive|friends|userinfo]

[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ archive | journal archive ]

updating for the sake of updating. yaaaay. [Aug. 23rd, 2005|04:51 pm]
[I'm feeling |happyhappy]
[I'm listening to |nothing for a change o.o]


Well, my sister's gone, off to college and looking for puppies she can make her (boy?)friend Justin take care of. My mom is officially *cough*39*cough* years old. We have hurricane shutters, a generator and new wood front doors with pretty glass in them, and my room is (SO YAY) yellow.


I start piano lessons again tomorrow...but at this point the only thing I care about musically is the fact that I'm learning to play the song "Paris" by Faith Hill. It's on her new album, which totally blows hard, except for like three songs, one of which is the aforementioned "Paris."

wow. I used the word aforementioned.

(By the way, although this is kind of random, I totally agree with Sophia's post on abortion. And I don't care if you disagree :P)

Anyway, school is as good as it can be, although Chemistry totally makes every day a little bit brighter...two times as bright, actually...lol, Kaila.


Also, History is a ton of fun because...well...because (lol to Kaila and Dan as well).

"a very artistic renaissance"
"...you really have some really domesticated plants."
"This is information I highly reccomend you want to take some notes on this."
"the desirable products they desired"
"I'm gonna get fat, and then I'm gonna be sad."

mwahaha. The quote lives again!

Have a good release-early-day schedule on Thursday.

I know I'm weird,

"Among those whom I like or admire, I can find no common denominator, but among those whom I love, I can: all of them make me laugh."
-W. H. Auden
link3 comments|post comment

...you still refuse to be traced... [Aug. 17th, 2005|11:22 am]
[I'm feeling |blahblah]
[I'm listening to |Dire Straits: On Every Street]

School is eeeevil.

But I don't want to talk about school.


I was feeling shitty for some reason last night. Don't know why. It's better today, though...I just have to get a tan or else I'm going to scream. I've been locked up in a classroom all week and now I'm pale like all of you losers. (teehee, just kidding, I love you all.)


*sigh* I miss Hawaii. and josh

rawr. nothing much else to say.


To break the ice!

aww, I miss Brett.

I know I'm weird,

"Obsessed by a fairy tale, we spend our lives searching for a magic door and a lost kingdom of peace."
Eugene O'Neill
link1 comment|post comment

eew. Being sick sucks. [Aug. 3rd, 2005|01:59 pm]
[I'm feeling |sicksick]

Thanks to an extreme lack of sleep and the fact that EVERYONE on tour was sick, I am now suffering from a cold.

poo. I think it's Erika's fault.

Anyway, there's a ton of stories about the tour, but it's too much to put here, and besides, I'm too lazy. *coughcough*

Reading HP and loving it. I should be finishing Fahrenheit 451, but how can I read about Guy Montag and his escape from the city when Harry just broke his nose? I mean, honestly?!

So in general, I'm in a pretty crappy mood for the following reasons:

a) I'm sick. *cough*
2) School starts in five days.
x) I'm exhausted.
and furthermore a certain someone has blown me off regarding a duet we were supposed to sing at districts *coughDANIELcough* and there's no way I'm doing a solo.

So how're you all doing?

"You don't love me,"

"Pray that your loneliness may spur you into finding something to live for, great enough to die for."
-Dag Hammarskjold
link2 comments|post comment

Fire and Ice #35, '05 [Aug. 1st, 2005|09:38 pm]
Hey you bored and boring peoples out there. Guess what? Your summer sucked. I don't care what you did. My summer kicked your summer's ass all the way to Alaska AND Hawaii.

FIRE AND ICE #35 SHOUTOUTS (which won't be read by anyone from ATW because none of them know I have an LJ but I MISS THEM ANYWAY *big eyes*)
Kieth and Jared I guess

'bye now.

link5 comments|post comment

Ah, life is sweet... [Jun. 26th, 2005|06:45 pm]
[I'm feeling |giddygiddy. fucking giddy!!]
[I'm listening to |Natalie Cole: Paper Moon]

Isn't it amazing how the tiniest little things can make your whole day?

It's not enough that I'm going on a fantastic trip leaving TOMORROW...but, lordy, this evening was really quite wonderful, thanks to just a few seconds of eye contact. That's all it took. That and a little bit of confidence that I wasn't kidding myself this time.

And I'm on top of the world.

If only I hadn't been with my parents.

I have a good feeling about the next month, my friends. Keep in touch if you can. I'll miss you all soo much.

Love you all.

"Flirtation: attention without intention."
-Max O'Rell
link6 comments|post comment

Pre-Teen Tour Excitement [Jun. 24th, 2005|10:10 am]
[I'm feeling |bouncybouncy]
[I'm listening to |Natalie Cole: Paper Moon]







(then home :P)

I haven't started packing yet...conversely, Lisa is FINISHED packing. I want to start as soon as possible, because it STILL hasn't completely sunk in...though it probably won't until Monday.

Still have to finish Guns (I wish I could shoot myself with a gun), Germs (could a fatal disease please infect me?) and Steel (does anyone have a steel pipe I can beat myself with?). I'll finish before the tour, though.

I shall miss you all...kind of. (just kidding!)

"You don't love me (or miss me),"

P.S. Knowing me, I'll probably update again before I go ;)

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."
-Mark Twain
linkpost comment

Rain is evil. [Jun. 20th, 2005|03:27 pm]
[I'm feeling |gloomygloomy]

Bah. This weather is really depressing me. Along with other things.

I just finished exercising while reading Guns, Germs and Steel - two things I despise. But if I keep up the pattern I've been using to read the stupid thing, I should be done in three or four days.

Alison leaves on Thursday. She spent this whole day talking on the phone and doing laundry to bring with her. I don't want to be an only child!! College is overrated, am I right? Having a sister like me is WAY better than, like, going to college or whatever. But seriously, I really am proud of her...she's going to UF on a full Bright Futures scholarship. You go, Loopy.

It hasn't fully sunk in that in exactly a week I will be on a plane headed to MINNEAPOLIS and eventually ALASKA, CANADA, SEATTLE, CALIFORNIA, and HAWAII!!! I should be completely ecstatic about going, but at this point I'm just waiting around at home, reading the most boring book ever written and watching crazy people on Maury. Might have gone to the movies with Kaila today, but there is nothing good playing, and besides, I'm lazy as hell.

Countdown Until the Teen Tour (yay!)
Countdown Until Loopy Goes to College (Boo!)
7 days
3 days

"You don't love me,"

"What are four walls, anyway? They are what they contain. The house protects the dreamer. Unthinkably good things can happen, even late in the game. It's such a surprise. Any arbitrary turning along the way, and I would be elsewhere. I would be different."
-Frances, Under the Tuscan Sun
link2 comments|post comment

Read between the lines. [Jun. 19th, 2005|07:24 pm]
[I'm feeling |tiredtired]
[I'm listening to |Roxette: Listen to Your Heart]

1. If you could go back in history, who would be the one person you would kill?
Adolf Hitler, definitely. (predictable, yes, but true).

2. Have you ever laughed so hard, liquid came out of your nose? If so, when?
I don't remember specific times, but I think it's happened with soda. Which SO sucks.

3. When was the last time you talked about someone behind their back? who?
Last night, Kaila and Allie and I talked about how little Lisa eats...but hey, she looks amazing.

4. If you were able to torture Mr. Witcher, what would you do to him?
...mwahaha. I'd probably cut off his *whoohoo*

5. If you could date one person on this planet, who would it be?
ooh...toughie. Truth is, I can't say. I want someone to take the time to understand me.


1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions


[nameless] - 6/19/05
The seconds tick by as I speak,
But you don't understand;
I still cannot decipher
What makes me think you can.
Sometimes I think you see me
The way I want you to;
So every time you hurt me,
I still crawl back to you.
So unaware of who I am
You pass me by; you're blind;
I wonder if you see the way
I cry and sigh and pine,
But tears can't make you love me,
Nor can my twisted words,
So I continue writing
In the hopes that I'll be heard.

And everything I wish to be
Is just a waste of time,
For a future is so insecure
Just based on verse and rhyme.
Where am I going? I don't know,
My happiness isn't free;
But I can't ever tell you
That I wish you could tell me.

"You don't love me,"

"To understand the heart and mind of a person, look not at what he has already achieved, but at what he aspires to."
-Kahlil Gibran
link3 comments|post comment

Random surveys [Jun. 18th, 2005|03:11 pm]
[I'm feeling |boredbored]
[I'm listening to |Bryan Adams]

I'm so bored and I'm supposed to be reading Guns, Germs and Steel. survey time! But first, please note:

Countdown Until the Teen Tour (yay!)
Countdown Until Loopy Goes to College (Boo!)
9 days
5 days

This or That? 50 questions.

Created by KickTheCheat and taken 113 times on bzoink!

rock or rap?rock
blue or red?blue
car or truck?car
lipstick or lipgloss?gloss
sunrise or sunset?sunset
open or closed?closed
sweet or sour?sweet
bath or shower?shower
fire or water?both.
old or new?new
ocean or forest?ocean
train or plane?plane
yesterday or today?today
trees or bushes?trees
left or right?right
fast or slow?fast
cremation or burial?cremation
even or odd?even
sun or rain?it depends on how tan I am at the moment.
carpet or hardwood floor?hardwood
guitar or piano?piano
New York or Paris?new york
horizontal or vertical?vertical
abstract or figurative?figurative
destiny or choice?choice
alone or together?together
silver or gold?silver
wristband or bracelet?bracelet
cable or satellite?satellite
Rebublican or Democrat or neither?republican
35mm or digital camera?digital
Daria or Powerpuff Girls?daria
'80s or '90s?90s
love or lust?love
now or forever?forever
bicycle or skateboard?bicycle
make a survey or take a survey?take
sitcom or drama?sitcom
mall or thrift store?mall
trendy or not?not!
billiards or bowling?both
music or movies?music
movie star or rock star?both
fast food or home-cooked?both.
zoo or museum?zoo
automatic or manual?automatic
MTV or TLC?niether
video game or board game?both
meat or vegetables?both
yes or no?yes

Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink!

Hmmm. Colors. Yeah.

Created by kickthecheat and taken 47 times on bzoink!

What color is/are your....
least favoritepukey green.
homelike a neutral cream color
bedroom wallsbeing painted yellow
bed sheetsbright yellow
car (if you have one)my family's cars: one pearly white, one thundercloud, one silver, one flint.
favorite shirtdon't have one ^_^
favorite foodminty green.
shirt (that you're wearing now)gray with red/yellow writing
pants/skirt/shortsblue denim
shoes (if you're wearing any)barefoot.
socks (if you're wearing any)barefoot.
birth stonegreen (emerald!)
bikeI don't think I have one
chair you're sitting ingray and black
guitaras if everyone has one of those?
home phonegray
cell phoneblue and silver
backpack/book carriermy new Kipling backpack for the teen tour is bright green!!
purse/walletboth pink
school colorsmaroon and silver
Word Assosiation:
More color questions:
What color car do you want?silver
What color would you like to dye your hair?I don't want to dye my hair.
What color eyes do you like best?all...it depends on the person!
Oh yeah, what color is the carpet in your bedroom (if you have carpet)?I have wood floors.
What color is the sky, right now?mostly gray now
What's the nearest thing to you that is...
pink?my iPod case thingy.
blue?my jeans.
white?a piece of paper.
black?the keys on my laptop.
gray?my printer.
purplea pen.
red?a rug.
green?a picture frame with a picture of my dog in it.
yellow?my teen tour trip itinerary paper.
orange?a tank top in my laundry basket.
brown?a new skirt I bought yesterday.
I forgot to ask...
What color is/are your...
current desktop?it's a photo of the US flag.
pet?black and tan
underwear?navy blue with sparkly stars
house key?bronze-y color
car key?don't have
kitchen floor?marble

Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink!

Random Qs

Created by KickTheCheat and taken 33 times on bzoink!

Have you ever....
been in an ambulance?no.
been on stage?yes
had a panic attack?no
been in a psychiatric hospital (not to visit)?no
cut your own hair?cut my bangs so they were symmetrical.
ran a red light?don't drive
won an auction on ebay?no
won a coloring contest?no
had insomnia?yes
been to a rave?no
seen a ghost/demon?no...have you?
asked someone out?no
caught a fish?no
been to Summer camp?day camp, yes, but not sleep-away. have been on a teen tour, though.
wanted plastic surgery?no
slapped someone?not purposely.
punched a hole in the wall?no. that would be cool though!
had an ingrown toenail?no
been on a blind date?no
Who was the last person...
you hugged?no idea :/
you kissed?my mom (kissed her goodnight last night)
you said "I love you" to?my parents
you yelled at?...the spider that was on my lounge chair.
you emailed?hm...either dan or kate, a friend from NC.
daydreamed about?hmm...not sure. I daydream a lot.
dreamed about?Brad Pitt last night...two nights ago I dreamt about Colin Farrell. don't laugh at me, lol.
you got angry at?that spider again.
that called you on the phone?where the fuck is my cell phone? ah...my mom.
that told you they love you?a parent
that emailed you?again, dan or kate.
When was the last time you...
laughed?about an hour ago maybe, with my sister.
cried?maybe last week or something.
made a survey?Never
drove a car (or truck, van, etc.)?a few weeks ago.
went to an amusement park?does a carnival count?
tickled someone?dunno.
looked in a mirror?a half hour ago, checking my tan :)
went outside?an hour ago or so I sat out and tanned.
Random questions:
Can you whistle?no :(
Do you sing and/or play any intruments? If yes, what do you play?I sing and play piano.
Do you snore?my sister says I do.
Do you talk in your sleep?she says I do that too.
What are your favorite hobbies?singing, piano, writing
Do you consider yourself liberal, moderate, or conservative? (if any)conservative
What's your dream job?novelist, famous writer
Have you ever heard of "Mystery Science Theater 3000"?no.
Are you a homestarrunner.com fan?YES.
What are some of your pet peeves?stupid people.
What's your guilty pleasure?chocolate.
What's the strangest thing you own?you want me to pick one? um...my dad bought me a "digital aquarium" dvd.
What is your motto?"You don't love meee!"
Okay. That's it for now. Have a nice day (or night)!you too.

Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink!

Movies, Movies, Movies

Created by KickTheCheat and taken 22 times on bzoink!

Name your favorite movie for each catagory:
Romantic comedyUnder the Tuscan Sun
dark comedydon't have one
other comedyMy Blue Heaven
dramaThe Shawshank Redemption
horrorI hate horror
cult classica what?
animatedFinding Nemo
familyWhat About Bob
sci-fiIndiana Jones (oh, Harrison!)
romanceDirty Dancing
black & white film/classic12 Angry Men
musicalSeven Brides for Seven Brothers, solely because one of the girls was named Dorcas. haha. Dorcas.
action adventurePirates of the Caribbean

Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink!

Word Association

Created by KickTheCheat and taken 24 times on bzoink!

What's the first thing you think of when you see these words?
weathererosion (oh, god, I hate school)
blondestupid (sorry blondes.)
pethouse (?)
applegwenyth paltrow
carhouse (what's with these houses)
babypeas (yes, peas. haven't you ever seen the Gerber commercials?)
bookgossip girl

Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink!

okay, I've lost interest.

"You don't love me,"
link2 comments|post comment

hmm. [Jun. 13th, 2005|10:40 pm]
[I'm feeling |confusedconfused]
[I'm listening to |the sound of the keyboard]

It's almost eleven at night. Today was the first day it was actually nice outside, so I got to get tan. FINALLY. I don't look like a pale dead person.

Went shopping yesterday, bought teen tour stuff...a new bathing suit, two Kipling bags, some J. Crew shirts and a Lacoste skirt that's a little too formal for the teen tour, but good for fancy school functions and such.

Finished my books...now I need to start school ones. like, yay.

*sigh* I'm feeling kind of confused.

What If [6/10/05]
What if?
The saddest of my sorrows,
question I ask
and myself.

What if...

What if
the clock stood still
and took time with it;
And nothing moved

Would I ever see you again?

What if
the sun never came up?
And I,
foolishly awaiting the end of summer's term
(and duely exhausting a hiatus from chaos)
were forced to live each unfolding day
in the darkness which overtakes me
(internal struggle
conversing with fiction)?

Would you reflect the blackness?

What if
I fell from this
murdered by my melancholy
my loneliness
my loss of hope
(for you);
Killed by you,
the ignorant?

Would you weep?

Would you...
toss and turn
at night, wondering if I was fulfilled?

lose direction,
lead astray beyond earthly reasoning?

move on,
but hold dearly to our memories?

or would you
(being so ignorant -
on occasion, in the least)...
would you forget me?

"You don't love me,"

"Dusk is just an illusion, because the sun is either above the horizon or below it. And that means that day and night are linked in a way that few things are; there cannot be one without the other, yet they cannot exist at the same time. How would it feel, I remember wondering, to be always together, yet forever apart?"
link1 comment|post comment

[ viewing | most recent entries ]
[ go | earlier ]